The Fetish Exhibition

Author: eckie
Title: The Fetish Exhibition
Date: 02 February 2012

I had been on holiday, for the first time in a few years actually travelling far abroad to enjoy some time away from everything. Mostly there was either no time or no money, never had both of them available at the same time, so when the chance came up, I took it and booked a four weeks trip to the US, the last time I had been here was already 15 years ago and then it was mere business, no fun.

I thought I’d start in the west, checking out California a little for a few days and then move towards the east, a few larger cities were always interesting to me, so in those four weeks I should be able to check out most of them. When I looked around for what was going on at the moment, I found one interesting exhibition mentioned, a Fetish Exhibition already going on for two days and it was only one more day in town, so I decided to have a look at it tomorrow first thing when it opens. I had never been to any of those so was definitely interested what could be found and seen on there. For today I kept continuing the usual 'tourist' sightseeing here.

The exhibition opened at ten, so I was up early for some relaxed breakfast in my hotel, and then got dressed up in my leather pants, t-shirt and boots, for that sort exhibition it felt wrong to enter in just jeans and sneaks. There was no queue at the entrance, just a few people before me, so I was able to get inside rather quickly. Being so early there was not yet much going on, but I was surprised about its size, not just a few booths or exhibits, but a large amount of anything a man like me has ever heard or read about. Any sort equipment, tools, toys, clothing, furniture, whatever one may want, here it is displayed. I am sure that some of the people there might have noticed my semi hard on when walking from one stand to the other and checking out everything I could see, touch or feel.

some had only the toys and materials spread or arranged in some sort of attracting display, others had actual gear in use, boys and girls (yes it was not a strictly gay exhibit) actually wearing the various gears that the particular stand was advertising, some just modeling normally, others placed into gear and furniture, cages, suspensions, slings, demonstrating the actual use of the one or other equipment.

Standing at one of the booths with a large amount of restraints, straitjackets, sleeping bags and plenty more leather and rubber toys that more or less got me harder than others was particular interesting to me, so I spent a little more time on that one than others. Several guys were present; all of them seemed to belong to the shop or company that owned the booth. I could see a pretty large cage with obviously a boy inside in some sort of dog suit, I noticed two of the guys just suspending someone in a leather sleepsack on to scaffolding in the back, and I overheard the others talking about two other boys coming later to be demo guys also. Since I actually was there for a while, one of them noticed me and came up to me, asking if he could be of any help, if I had a particular interest they might be able to show me. I said at first that I am just browsing and I was fine, he then told me that if I needed any help, I should just call him, his name was Steven and then he turned to get back to the other guys in order to help them further, but then spontaneously I thought why not ask, when would I have a chance again, so told him that maybe there was something he could help me with.

He turned back to me with a smile and asked what that might be, with a smirk on his face, he definitely noticed my semi hard on in my leathers and was definitely aware that any of the gear seen turns me on for sure. I then just blurted it out, asking if it was eventually possible to try on the one or other item they had here on display, as I knew some of it merely from images, yet not the feel of wearing or using it on myself. his smirk went bigger then and he replied that it is of course not an issue to have some of the gear tried on, depending on what it was of course, and more over depending on whether they had something in my interest that would fit more or less proper on me. he sized me up and down then and quickly added that given on my size unfortunately there was a rather limited choice, because most of the gear here was sized for the various volunteers they had coming for the exhibition days, and since it was the last day of the exhibit, he does not think their boss would have extra gear shipped from their stores for this day. I 3as not one of the thin toned youngsters anymore, so could understand that of course and replied that he should not worry, it was just a curious question anyway.

Steven quickly added then that there was at least one option, if I would have an interest, pointing at the guy in the cage he said that the bosses own pet was about my size, and even though the boss was not yet in, he would probably not mind getting his pet out of the equipment to have a potential customer in it instead. however he added that the crowd will come in soon and I would have to agree to remain inside as exhibit for at least a few hours, especially since the way that outfit was made required more than just a few minutes work to get the pet out and me inside. He added there were some interesting features embedded into and underneath the visible outfit, if I would be curious enough to have it applied complete, it would be an option for me to try. I was usually not so much into dog play or the likes, but the chance to at least try out something interesting like it made me agree to it.

He then said alright, there is just enough time for him and his coworkers to get it done before the crowds would arrive. He went to the cage and unlocked it, calling the guy inside then, come out boy, it is your lucky day, and this customer wants to take your place. Some grunting noise came from underneath the dog shaped hood and with rather stiff movements the guy then crawled out of the cage and followed him. I could see he had no option to get up, his legs bent at knees inside that suit kept him on his knees, the dog tail wiggling while he moved, a black tube obviously covering his dick, his hands useless in thick padded paws at the end of his stretched out arms. Steven called the other guys to assist him, telling them they needed to get the pet out of the gear and that I would try it on after that. Three guys disappeared behind a hidden door in one of the booth wall with the pet following them. Steven came back to me and explained, my dick and balls would be placed into some device to keep them in check, I would need to also have the dog tail in my butt and for hygienic reasons, and a full head to toe rubber coverage is needed underneath the leather dog suit. As I probably noticed, the speech will be also limited by a device, specially made for that suit. as he mentioned before, I would need to be inside for a couple hours once I am proper fitted into everything, and for legal reasons I would have to sign a waiver, holding anyone harmless for being trapped into that suit, because the law unfortunately does not joke when it comes to any form of lockup without having a written consent and waver present, if that was ok, we should be able to start then, the others should be finished getting the boy out of it by now. After I agreed and signed unread the waver he presented to me, he waved me to follow him towards that hidden door then and we entered.

inside indeed I saw now the boy stand naked, toweling himself off, a cute man actually, looking rather exhausted though, I wondered why, as a few hours inside that suit should not be that bad I thought. Next to him a pile of gear, obviously everything that had been on him before. Steven told them - it seems he was somewhat the leader of the pack - that they should get me ready then, I was ok with having the complete suit applied, and when finished they should take me to the cage, he would attend the booth in the meantime.

The others grinned after hearing it and then one of them told me to strip so they can get started. I took my clothes off, feeling a bit weird though doing that in a strange area in front of strangers, but I wanted to try that gear so did not care too much. I placed my clothing folded in one corner and then came up to one of the guys who already held some sort of waist harness in his hands. explaining to me that this harness will hold the dog tail in place but as well act as the chastity device and additionally take care of eventual pissing needs, pointing at each matching part on it while telling me that. I was told to bend over so they could start with the tail, a rather large very flexible rubber tail with a reasonable sized butt plug at its end, after applying thoroughly lube to my butt, he inserted it, slowly, giving me time to adapt and relax until it finally settled in its place. I was not necessarily used to being plugged much, but the size was bearable and for a few hours I would cope with it I thought. he then told me to stand straight again to get the tube over my dick, he grinned when saying that luckily I was not yet hard, else that would cause issues, and he added that it might sting a little, as inside that tube was a urethra tube, which then later would take care of eventual piss needs while I was in the suit. Again proper lube applied he started fitting it over my luckily indeed not yet hard dick. I focused not to shout out when that tube was inserted into my piss slit and slowly shoved deeper and deeper inside, it stung temporarily, but I did have a catheter experience before and knew that once it was inserted, the stinging stops quickly.

Once that tube was completely fitted over my dick he began strapping that harness shut and once proper buckled up, the pieces were held in place correctly, the tail no longer able to slip out, the dick tube pointing straight forward, and the ball cover keeping my balls in their place hidden underneath the black material also now. I did not see an opening at the tip of that tube so asked how one would piss then, since that insert in my piss slit was a tube also, allowing piss through in theory. he explained that the device was special made for that suit, that tube inside my dick was inside the large tube connected to a rubber tube leading alongside the penis tube back, alongside the balls cover and had an opening there then, to which they now connect this - with saying that showing me a rather large clear piss bag with attached 2 feet long rubber tube. He explained it will be strapped on to my chest and belly area and then connected, able to hold enough piss in order not to require quick change.

the bag was then immediately placed on my chest and belly, fixed on to it with three elastic straps going around my body and kept in place with that and then the tube was connected to the harness device as needed. with the three of them then they started applying pads on my body, explaining that those are for possible stimulation of various body parts, and I would be demonstrated later how they work, but they are part of the suit so will need to be applied also. two pads went on each of my arse cheeks, one of each nipple, two on each of my sides next to the strapped on piss bag, one each to the left and right of my Adams apple, one right on to the back of my neck, two on each sole of my feet. Together then they applied a thin cable string, connecting each of those pads to it and additionally connecting something at my crotch area also. After that was done one of them held a rubber suit up and said it was time for the coverage now.

It was a rather thick rubber suit, attached feet, attached paws, attached hood, the entry was a small zip that was open from the top of the hood about half way down the back, the hood had a built in breathe through gag, some small tubes to insert into the nose to keep breathing open and pin holed eyes, also there was one hole in front and back to match the penis tube and tail plug. Two of the guys applied generous lube on my body quickly and then I was helped inside that suit. I could feel it was still warm and wet from the previous guy inside, that even turned me on a little, but I noticed then that the penis tube would not allow much joy at the moment, so started to focus on getting dressed instead. the suit was not too tight, together they managed my feet into the suit, straightening all wrinkles on the legs before pulling it over the harness, carefully inserting the penis tube and the tail plug into their openings of the suit, then helping my arms down their sleeves, ending in a mitted paw, already not allowing my use of them anymore now and finally helping my head to settle into the hood correctly, making sure the tubes up the nose, the gag, and they pin holed eyes are in the right place before then finally zipping the suit shut. With the zip closing the suit then fitted on my body like a glove, tight enough, not too tight, sealing me now completely head to toe from the outside. I loved that feel and my dick wanted to show it, but there was no option, instead it caused light pain then, reminding me of the tube I was in and additionally the tube inside my penis also.

One of them stood in front of me and asked if I was ok and ready to continue, I nodded to him, no longer able to freely speak with the gag in my mouth now. So he pointed on the piece of leather still on the floor and told me that it was time to get into that now. he explained that embedded to the front part over my chest and belly is the device that would be in charge for the stimulation control, so that would need to be connected in time before the suit was closed, but the way it was made it seamlessly matched into the suit, undetectable, not a lump box or anything, but especially made for this suit. A feature the boss came up with when planning this suit for his pet. First I was told to get on my knees, when moving I noticed the tail moving and stimulating my butt, again reason to get horny, yet an unforgiving tube over my dick prevented that. I was then to stretch my arms straight forward so that they were able to slip them into the arms of that suit until my rubber mitted hands ended in a thick padded mitt attached to those. I immediately realized that hands would be definitely out of order in those but also noticed why the boy before was rather stiff. Inside those arms embedded were steel bones, making it impossible to actually bend the arms now, they have to remain straight out from now on, limiting reach and touch even more then.

I was then told to put my weight on the hands and allow them to pull the suit under my knees and while one each bent my legs up touching my thighs now, the other quickly inserted those bent legs into their settlement of the suit. Once it was pulled all up and covering my feet now too, stretching legs was no more an option. I also noticed the embedded padding around knees to make extended stay on them more doable. One of them now grabbed inside around my crotch area and explained that he was now connecting the suit with the end of the cable string they had placed earlier.

Once he was done they pulled the dog shaped hood over my rubber face, ensuring that the end of the breath through gag connected proper inside that hood as well as the ends of the nose tubes connected in their place there before then pulling it around the back of my head and starting to lace it up. only now I realized that they eyes were actually covered by tinted lenses, making everything look rather blurry to me now and additionally the neck part of the suit was extra thick and extra hardened. With every piece of lacing it shut, movement of my head was also more restricted. While one of them did the lacing at the hood, the other two were very efficient lacing the entire back of the suit, tightening t around my body until they finished completely. I realized, even though not a single lock was used, with the lack of bending my arms and the thick padding on my hands I was unable to take that off for sure, no matter what I might try.

I heard then one of the guys talk to the others, asking if they are done then or should do it complete, one other then replying that the boss would definitely get angry when he would see it not complete, so they better finish it correctly. I was not sure what they meant, without seeing it. What they actually did now was sealing the lacing shut, using a leather strap that was over the entire length of the lacing, from the head towards my butt, matching to some small extra leather on each side of the lacing they now started sewing that strap on to the body suit. they must obviously have done that more often, as with the three of them it took not much time before this strap was sufficiently sewed on to the suit, now covering the lacing and making it impossible to unlace anything until that part would have been cut off, using proper leather threat made it unlikely to accidentally break or rip off either.

once they finished, one of them told me to check it out and pointed to a mirror on one side, I turned to it slowly, now realizing the restrictions I was locked inside, only able to be on knees, unable to bend arms, just able to crawl stiffly, unable to turn my head much either. But once I had vision of that - well as much as the blurred vision now allowed, I could see a dog shaped face staring at a leathered restricted body on all fours. once again my dick attempted to get some space, even though I was not much into that dog play, the view and the feel of the restrictions made me attempt to get hard, yet to no available.

One of them then came closer to me and told me that they would now activate the connected device, but before they will tell me what impact it will have. There were a large amount of batteries embedded into the suit, making it last rather long time, not talking hours, but days and weeks if needed. Randomly it would send out stimulations to the various pads connected, including the embedded pads in the penis tube and the connection to the tail plug. Depending on the settings those could be made painful, but its regular setting is about stimulation only, pleasant stimulation. However, there is an extra feature in the controls active at all times; those are about the pads on my Adams apple. Slight silent grunting will apply stimulation to both, front and back of the neck, so it is possible to do that; however attempts to speak into the gag or to make louder noises will switch to painful shocks all over the body on all attached pads and connections. I could try if I wanted, but I should be warned that they are hefty and intense. I tried a slight silent grunt and indeed could feel some rather easy tingling on those pads on my neck. I was not sure if I should attempt the speaking, but thought I give it a try, curious if and how that would actually work. so when I tried to speak into the gag, not that it would be much clear words anyway, but at least an attempt, I immediately was hit all over all pads with very painful shock, making me almost fall on my side. I quickly kept silent again then, but wanted to test more, not speaking but woofing of grunting louder, unfortunately with the same effect, immediate pain everywhere, and definitely not of the pleasant kind, this was definitely an extremely effective device to keep one silent. They had watched me and once I was silent again asked if I was ok, I tried nodding as much as the stiff neck allowed and then was told to follow them, time to be displayed out there in the booth inside the cage. unused to the position and the stiffness of the prison, I slowly crawled following them outside now, towards the cage and then inside, just to hear immediately the lock on the door click shut the moment I entered completely. While they left to get back to Steven, I turned around now and had a look at the surroundings, with the blurry view everything seemed different, a different world, yet still recognizable, especially since I actually had seen it just before, so I knew what was where and what. I could make out the four guys talk to each other, not really understanding much though under the two hoods, saw then point towards me a few times during that talk, but then I also saw another person joining them, who would that be, the boss, the other guy that was in the suit before? I looked closer and then recognized he was wearing a dark pant, a tee, boots, pretty much what I was wearing earlier, could it be that he was wearing my clothes, I did not agree to that, then again was not in a place to argue now. But I did somehow enjoy the feel right now, not knowing would I enjoy or hate it, yet being aroused, or at least attempting to, enhanced by the randomly applied stimulations, when it activated on my dick, plug and balls. I certainly was swearing on the penis tube, keeping me from enjoying a hard on, but that was part of the whole, so for a while it would be ok.

so there I was, a leather covered pup, on knees and hands, stiff, unable to make human moves and unable to make human noise, with every move I felt the tail swing long after that, stimulating my prostate on ongoing basis now also, and of course a locked cage, making it impossible to get anywhere anyway also. I tried sitting down, of course with the tail not possible to sit on my butt, but sitting on my bent legs was possible, with the stretched arms then looking like a dog neatly sitting and waiting, not much more one can do I guessed, maybe try lay down somehow, but time will show.

Then suddenly the guy that seemed to wear my clothes came to the cage and when he was in front of me, he said good luck boy, I appreciate it, and then patted the leathered dog head and immediately left, not back to the others, but leaving the booth and walking away. I wondered what he meant and thought he probably was happy to enjoy the exhibit now instead of being locked in here for the day, I could understand, yet also of course was excited to be placed inside this outfit instead of him for now.

Nobody now took much notice of me and time went, many people coming to the booth, some walking around touching and checking the carious items, the boy hanging in his sleepsack as much as I in the cage, patting me, touching the leather of the body, even the tail and dick tube, obviously checking each part out. I inside the suit started to sweat a bit, and I got thirsty, only now wondering about that, not having asked before what was done regarding food or drink. But at some point one of the guys came to the cage, telling about feeding me now, attaching a tube to the mouthpiece in the hood and pouring down some fluids. By the taste of it I noticed it was some iso drink probably, not the best taste, but refreshing and somewhat energizing too, so I gladly gulped it all down. After the feeding no more attention followed other than the occasional touch and pat from visitors of the booth.

I was not sure how much time passed, but a few hours for sure, the blurry vision but also the limited area of my view from inside the cage made it all now rather boring, if I would see any of the people that was here in my vision today again at later time, I would not recognize anyone, blurry faces and shapes was all I noticed. It would slowly be time for me to get out and got on my own way again, but when had they planned to get me out then? I tried to make myself noticed, grunting carefully, knowing the limitations I was given in this device, but nobody reacted on it. I tried grunting a bit louder, careful still, but again without reactions, so I attempted the big mistake, shouting into the gag, and I regretted that immediately, howling in pain immediately, I did notice that the guys and some customers now looked towards me, but none of them actually came closer, instead the guys obviously just explained the mechanism of the device, what just happened, laughter and more laughter around the guys and visitors, but I was left on my own, no chance to have any influence on what was going on.

hours and hours passed, uncomfortable, sweaty, frustrated horniness, enhanced by the constant random electro stimulation on my body, having been fed fluids three times in the meantime I also had felt the piss getting into that bag strapped on to my chest, I certainly wanted out now, but had to wait helpless, I assumed that they wanted to keep me until the end of the exhibit today, not to have an empty cage while visitors still were around. not much I could do about that, so I resigned into the situation and decided to just lay down inside the cage and wait for what was to come.

at some point, I was on my fours again in the meantime watching the surroundings as much as it was possible, someone approached the cage, a tall man dressed all black, another visitor I thought, but he then patted my head, crawled ,y neck and said good boy, has my boy missed me, has mu boy been a good doggy, yeah, I bet you missed your Man a lot, but don’t worry, you will play in your kennel soon again, boy, then he left and talked to the other guys in the booth. What did he mean I thought, but then realized, he probably still thought the other guy was inside this suit, not having been told that a customer was temporarily in here, so probably only now that he talked to them he would be made aware of it.

He was around with the others now and another at least hour passed, les people came, and at some point I noticed the guys starting to pack up their gear. Then I heard the tall guy shout: wrap it up guys; we have a long way ahead and another 6 exhibits all over the country to go to. I could see the guys take that sleepsack boy off the scaffolding, but instead of taking him out I realized they just placed him into a large body sized black box, closed it, locked it and continued packing other things then in other boxes. I 'wowed' into my brains, not being able to speak it out loud due to the punishment I would then receive from the device, it was some fantasy of mine to be 'transported' like that some time, wondering however if that boy in there agreed to it or if he was part of the staff or if he actually did not know what happened now.

at some point the tall man came to my cage again, telling me again what a good boy I was and that it was feeding time, connecting the tube again and feeding me quite a lot fluids now, continuing to talk that we had a long travel ahead and he would see me tomorrow then, patting my head then again and leaving again. Short after the other guys approached, large pieces of black plates in their hands, and I soon realized those were walls to attach around the cage, sealing it into a large black box at the end, concealing its content. I tried to make notice of myself, but the slight possible grunts that I was able to make were hardly heard in all the packing noise, I wanted out, yet I had no chance to make that clear to anyone, I wanted to let the tall guy know who was inside here, but helplessly delivered to whatever happens I had no possibility to interfere with anything now.

Being now isolated in total darkness I could just wait, and after some time I felt the box being moved for some time, at the end being harshly put on the floor again and silence started again for some time. Probably half an hour ago, I had no option to judge time anymore for a long while now, I felt vibrations, movement, and I tried to figure out what or when and assumed that the box had been loaded into a truck or van and that this van was now on the move. I wondered where the other guy actually was, his real pet, the one that went off in my clothes, I wondered how to be able to tell that tall guy who I was, I wondered a lot, even more then wondered what will happen, another 6 exhibits he said, if each of them takes 4 days as this one, all over the country, I would be in real trouble if I could not make myself heard or known quickly. But for now I could not do anything but wait until 'it' was unpacked again. I even managed to get some sleep, uncomfortable, but sleep.

When I woke up I was still in the dark, but I realized no moving at all, was I still in the truck, or anywhere else... I could not tell. about an hour later finally the walls around the cage were removed again, and to my surprise I found the cage once again in some sort of booth like the day before, slightly different setup as far as the blurred vision allowed to recognize, I did see that sleepsack hang again on a scaffolding, was it that same boy, how did he feel, what did he think, was he also unable to make himself heard ... questions I could not answer and nobody else would answer me on that either.

someone came to the cage and told me it was feeding time again, I did not recognize the voice, it was not the tall guy, not one of the guys I heard the day before, but he connected the tube and fed me a lot fluids again, the same as the day before. Then he left and continued his business around the booth. I was thinking, there must be a way to make myself known, but how, I grunted as far as the device allowed without pain, nobody took any kind of notice however, I kept grunting, but it seems that everyone just ignored that, maybe they did not even hear it with the noise around them going on... so I took my guts together and thought I just have to cope with the pain for a bit, but I need to make myself heard, and I tried shouting into the gag for help, as much as the gag allowed, followed by the incredible pain all over my body, I kept trying to shout a few more times, but then gave up, cramped in pain laying on the floor of that cage I just could not shout any longer, too much pain for a person to handle.

However right after the tall guy suddenly stood in front of the cage, reaching in and patting my head, good boy, calm down boy, you know you have no choice, boy, you know there is no way, boy, just accept it boy, and be a good puppy, that is what you are and always will be. I whined, partially from the pain I just was in and partially to make him aware what was going on, but to my surprise then he said: don't worry, boy, I know what happened yesterday, I know about the switch, boy, but I guess I must explain something to you, I believe my other slave boys did not tell you everything. They take care of my pet, and now that is you, whether you like it or not. they feed you, they will take you out in time, clean you, put you back in here again, make sure you are healthy and ok, and they do that without me being present, as matter of fact, the last time I have seen the body and face of my doggy is more than three years ago. I did not create this pet to have it walk as human, act as human, see it as human ever, to me this is a pet, nothing more, and will never be anything else. I created this suit to have total control, to make any resistance impossible, to create a human pet that will be mine, follow me, and do as I say. if at any time they switch the boy that is inside here, I will not notice, not realize, it makes no difference to me, because all I see is the pet I created, the pet I own, the pet I want, who is inside is irrelevant to me, from outside it is all the same looks. and a new boy inside may create some extra training challenge in time, yet whoever was in here so far always complied, I am sure you realized already that you have no choices anymore. sometimes the slave boys tell me when they switch the boy inside this suit, sometimes they don't, I told them it is irrelevant to me, as long as they take good care of my pet and as long as I have my pet available to me whenever I want. when we are not on exhibitions, you will spend most time either in your kennel on my estate or in one of my shops as living decoration, get used to it, you won't have a choice anymore, boy. And in case you wonder, you did sign a waiver earlier, and it states clearly that you voluntarily are in this situation and that you have no option to hold anyone responsible for anything in court of law.

and if or when you may be replaced, it is not up to me, it is irrelevant to me, whether you spend a month or a year or the rest of your time in here, I will always just see that one pet that is mine, regardless if it is you or someone else locked inside. So give in to it, embrace it, it is how it is, and there is nothing you can change on it, boy. With another pat on my head he then left and attended to others in their work on the booth again.

I understood now what the other guy meant with wishing me good luck, luck to get out of here at some point in life again, like he did, I understood why Steven said it was his lucky day that I wanted to get into this outfit, I understood why he was wearing my clothes when he left, obviously he did not longer have any of his own, who knows how long he has been locked inside here before me, a week, a month, a year ... I wondered however what would happen, whoever is locked in here is missing, will have to get their life back once released, if released that is, would he file charges against those guys, then again, I remembered having signed that waver, so no option on that, having not read it complete I did not know its content, but as the tall guy, or should I call him my Owner said, I signed it, so legally have nothing in my hands against him or his boys. so I guessed that other boy was just happy that someone stupid fell for it and took his place in here, and then he left to get his life back, having my hotel, money, credit cards and everything he would have an easy start, I wondered .. and wondered ... three weeks holiday are left, so if released within that time I might get out without trouble, if it takes longer, the troubles coming from being a missing person will be huge, job gone, house gone, money gone, whatever other troubles will come, not paying mortgage or any other bills, would there actually be a way back into my current life... well, I should say former life as it seems the current one is here inside this cage inside this suit. I would not know, and not find out until I was eventually released someday, for now I was, well even though I disliked dog play in the past, now I am one and will have to stay one for an uncertain amount of time of my life. I voluntarily entered it, waived any rights about this, and there was absolutely nothing I could do against it ... I was pissed off at myself and at the boys who did that to me, but I realized that nothing will change the situation, so I will have to learn to live with it now, no matter how much I like or dislike it. The former successful man and top has become a pet to an unknown man, and I can just hope someday it ends, but I will not know and have to accept this as my life now.